I have started a new blog at Salon. This will be essentially a meta safersex: an explanation of why I do what I do. I'm going to try and write a biography about how I've gotten to the point where I am a single parent, Directory of Internet Technology for Condomania, hobbiest at The Safer Sex Page, and survivor of domestic abuse.
I have said for quite a while, to myself, that when I had the strength I would put together all of the data I had in a record. I am confident that such a gathering of materials, my writings, emails, telephone numbers, identities of the officials involved, and other incidencieries related to those tragic events in 1997 when I set foot as a man instead of the boy I had been before that, will be nothing but an asset to me in my life. Their is the distinct possibility that I will grow as a result of going through this material and finally putting some perspective to the last 5 years of changes.
I'm going to reconstruct all my piles of paperwork from the courts, the social workers, my scribbled notes, remembrances at the time, the stuff I wrote about it in poems, emails, sessions with the therapists involved, the drugs I took, the sex I had, & the discoveries I've made, etc. etc. Intergenerational sexual abuse echoes in the decisions I made. Somewhere in this mess is the reason why I feel so compelled to "drop" sex ed knowledge & force full disclosure. Noone should have to ever deal with the kind of stuff that the women in my life have had to deal with.
UPDATE This is the opening remarks about John the Maiden which has moved locations. I have edited all addresses above.